This is a continuation of Natalie's journey through sickening. Did you have a chance to read Awakening the Fire Within - Part 1? Click Awakening The Fire Within - Part 1 to read her journey before you begin Part 2.
Awakening fire within perhaps is the greatest weapon that any individual can have and has just never realized that they do. Have you ever been in a situation where you did not know what to do or how to handle a problem and then in a matter of time you gained courage and strength and without knowing it you did the unimaginable? Well that’s the power that every individual possesses and we sometimes as human beings either look down upon ourselves or have just never known that we have it. In my journey I’m seeking to bring out the fire within and be the very best that I can ever be.
I now had six months of medication intake nonstop until when I could get better. I was given some very strong painkillers and some blood thinners. Blood thinners are tablets that do not necessary thin the blood veins but rather act as coagulants so that they can either prevent further formation of blood clots in the body and also get rid of the already formed clots. Taking these medications required me to find that fire within me and bring it out to survive the side effects.
The first week was crazy, I had dizzy spells, headaches, nausea, dullness, weakness of the body, increase flow /menstrual periods, drowsiness, numbness and the list goes on and on. I remember taking time off work to just deal with my pains. I would just sleep the whole day in the hope that when I would wake up I would be okay, this was not the case. I would sometimes cry so much in my solitude. I did not want to go home to my parents because I did not want to show them my vulnerability. As much as they were supposed to be strong for me, I had to be strong for myself. The last thing that I ever wanted to see was the face of my mum while I was going through my pains. I did not want to put her through the pain of seeing me suffer. And so I searched deeper within for my fire and soon the days turned to weeks and weeks to a month.
I’m now done with the first month of my medication and I must say it has not been easy. It has been a journey that I would never want anyone not even my worst enemy to go through. I’m talking about the sleepless nights that I had, the good and bad days that I had. Not every day is the same. Today you are OK and the next you are down with something.
In my first month I have learned that during your time of need that’s when you will know who your true friends are. Some friends avoided me like a plague mostly because they thought I would come begging for money from them. And that’s where we all go wrong; we always assume that just because someone is sick all they need from us is money for the medication. Well I must admit that I would really do with some money since I spend a lot on my medication but sometimes it’s about the “Hi” and the “I’m just checking on you” that really matter. It’s about the “I just wanted you to know that I’m thinking about you” that means the world. I always say, it does not matter how much money I need now and honesty I don’t have a clue where it will come from for the next six months but one thing I know is that God will provide.
I have also learned not to worry about anything in life. I honestly do not know how I got money to buy my medication for my first month or the next two months but dr. ones God is faithful. He sent people my path that I never expected would show up. These people have supported me financially and I can say it’s a miracle.
I have also learned that when you are sick or have a problem, that’s when you really begin to appreciate the value of good health and life. You begin to appreciate the small things like waking up in the morning, or being able to go to the market to buy groceries or even being able to hold the remote and change the channels, just being able to go to the toilet without any help. You appreciate life, that you can have two meals a day, not even three is far better enough. I can say that now I have a third eye and the way I look at life has completely changed. I walk around appreciating Gods creation; I appreciate that mama mboga who would loyally cut my sukuma. That salonist who would make my hair and tell me to pay her with what I had (though I had to shave my hair now). I appreciate the poor farmer that I serve as part of my work, who lives in abject poverty but still find it in them to so warmly welcome me to their homes with a cup of tea. I have learned to live each day at a time because my friends tomorrow, you just never know about tomorrow. Have also learned to
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Awakening fire within perhaps is the greatest weapon that any individual can have and has just never realized that they do. Have you ever been in a situation where you did not know what to do or how to handle a problem and then in a matter of time you gained courage and strength and without knowing it you did the unimaginable? Well that’s the power that every individual possesses and we sometimes as human beings either look down upon ourselves or have just never known that we have it. In my journey I’m seeking to bring out the fire within and be the very best that I can ever be.
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The first week was crazy, I had dizzy spells, headaches, nausea, dullness, weakness of the body, increase flow /menstrual periods, drowsiness, numbness and the list goes on and on. I remember taking time off work to just deal with my pains. I would just sleep the whole day in the hope that when I would wake up I would be okay, this was not the case. I would sometimes cry so much in my solitude. I did not want to go home to my parents because I did not want to show them my vulnerability. As much as they were supposed to be strong for me, I had to be strong for myself. The last thing that I ever wanted to see was the face of my mum while I was going through my pains. I did not want to put her through the pain of seeing me suffer. And so I searched deeper within for my fire and soon the days turned to weeks and weeks to a month.
I’m now done with the first month of my medication and I must say it has not been easy. It has been a journey that I would never want anyone not even my worst enemy to go through. I’m talking about the sleepless nights that I had, the good and bad days that I had. Not every day is the same. Today you are OK and the next you are down with something.
In my first month I have learned that during your time of need that’s when you will know who your true friends are. Some friends avoided me like a plague mostly because they thought I would come begging for money from them. And that’s where we all go wrong; we always assume that just because someone is sick all they need from us is money for the medication. Well I must admit that I would really do with some money since I spend a lot on my medication but sometimes it’s about the “Hi” and the “I’m just checking on you” that really matter. It’s about the “I just wanted you to know that I’m thinking about you” that means the world. I always say, it does not matter how much money I need now and honesty I don’t have a clue where it will come from for the next six months but one thing I know is that God will provide.
I have also learned not to worry about anything in life. I honestly do not know how I got money to buy my medication for my first month or the next two months but dr. ones God is faithful. He sent people my path that I never expected would show up. These people have supported me financially and I can say it’s a miracle.
I have also learned that when you are sick or have a problem, that’s when you really begin to appreciate the value of good health and life. You begin to appreciate the small things like waking up in the morning, or being able to go to the market to buy groceries or even being able to hold the remote and change the channels, just being able to go to the toilet without any help. You appreciate life, that you can have two meals a day, not even three is far better enough. I can say that now I have a third eye and the way I look at life has completely changed. I walk around appreciating Gods creation; I appreciate that mama mboga who would loyally cut my sukuma. That salonist who would make my hair and tell me to pay her with what I had (though I had to shave my hair now). I appreciate the poor farmer that I serve as part of my work, who lives in abject poverty but still find it in them to so warmly welcome me to their homes with a cup of tea. I have learned to live each day at a time because my friends tomorrow, you just never know about tomorrow. Have also learned to
"LIVE for today not tomorrow. To be of good cheer and not stress about sorrow & pain. Because rain will come, the sun will shine and above all, I am one of a Kind!"
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so touching and a real eye opener,,, though most of us only get the 3rd sense when trouble or challenges befall us.GOD l pray that may l walk with you in my bad and good days.may natalie get well in Jesus name
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